mommy, what is heaven?
melis was reading max little house on the prairie. seeing the joy on max's face as his mom reads to him is such an amazing thing to witness. i'm not sure i can even put it into words but...mom reads. max smiles. he laughs. max stares off as he envisions the words he hears his mom read. mom shows him the pictures. max asks questions. more smiles and giggles from both.
melis told me that max can be sobbing, in pain...and she can pull out a book and start reading to him and it will help him calm down. reading is their special medicine.
then max said, mommy, my legs really hurt. melis told max that he doesn't have to sit in pain and he should tell her right away...tell her right away, when the pain first starts so she can get him medicine to help the pain before it 'really hurts'. melis hit the call bell and asked the nurse for some pain medicine. the nurse came in and asked, the big lortab or the small one? the big one please. the nurse left and when she came back, she dropped off the syringe of yellow medicine at max's bedside. i'm assuming this is something that regularly happens b/c it all transpired pretty naturally...the nurse dropping off the pain med and melissa giving it to max. melis disconnected max's g-tube feeding and gave the lortab through his g-tube. it was followed by a flush of saline, which seemed to bother max a bit. that's enough mommy. that's enough.
after the medicine, melis got back to reading. i'm not sure what the section of the book was about, but i heard the following:
mommy, what is heaven?
what is heaven?
yea, what is heaven?.
heaven is where people go when they die. like grandma. grandma xxx is in heaven.
and reading begins again.
but the reading didn't last for long. melis told max that she needed a little break from reading and asked max if he was tired. max was. melis said that maybe they could take a little break from reading so max could rest. max turned his head to the side and shut his eyes. and melis teared up. we glanced at one another. not a word spoken. melis wiped away her tears. the phone rang. a call that melis had to answer. and with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat, i went back to shooting.
i've never seen this happen. through everything that we've talked about and everything i've witnessed, i've never seen melis anything but amazingly strong. i've never heard a quiver in her voice. i've never seen a tear shed.
and in saying that, this was a moment that melis showed the most amazing strength.
and then max slept. i took a few more shots of max sleeping and then my time photographing max was done.